Frozen

I am numb..walking around in a blur...frozen.  Thats it..I am frozen.  How do you help someone when you know they need it but don't think they do??  How do you save them from killing themself, from ruining their life??  I cannot be around her 24 hours a day....I am exhausted...Hippa laws...privacy acts...what about protecting our children? I have no right to know how far deep into trouble she is, but I am responsible for her till she is 21, but cannot put her in a place to help her unless she wants to go...I ask how is that fair? I am her mom, and only want the best for her...I love her, from the bottom of my heart, for always and forver no matter what.

addicton

Addiction can be different things to different people. My own adiction would be food. Of course  everyone thinks of drinking, drugs, and smoking.  But addiction can also be of hoarding, excessive cleaning, gambling, and of course facebook!!  Today I am going to share a story about a girl with a drug addiction.  She is my daughter.  My youngest child.  Let me first say, yes, I am a single mom.  I was there for her growing up.  I worked nights while she was sleeping to put food on the table and pay bills.  I was there to drive her to friends or have friends over.  I was there to watch her fall in love with horses, fall off of horses and get back up on them.  I was there at 4am to go to horse shows, and walk her around with horse in tow in the heat...so where did something go wrong?? Life hasn't been easy, it has been a struggle, but we have always had each other. A family.  I don't have the answers.  I do know that it is tough to see one you love so much and want only good things to happen to, be falling so hard.  It is walking that fine line...I try to let her go, to do things on her own, but she is stumbling, and how can a mom sit by and watch?  So for tonight she is out.  I do not know where or who with.  I pray for her strength and all our love for her to pull her through, before it is to late for her.  Before she is my childhood classmate.  I pray for my strength.